I was challenged by a good friend of mine, Eric Goldson to combine my love of writing with a bit of self improvement. What you will see for the next 9 months is the results of that challenge.
Each 30 day period I will give up one of my guilty pleasures/vices. The first few [...]
The Killa Is Guilty Chapter 1, Day 1: Alcohol
by KillaCal on 02. Sep, 2010 in The Killa Is Guilty
New Phase….
by KillaCal on 23. Aug, 2010 in General Purposes
With or Without You by U2….
Pretty much says it all right now….I mean I’m prepared at this point to go on with life….I don’t necessarily need someone right now….but at the same time….
Yeah who knows….but I guess I’m no longer feeding myself the delusion that there is a future there….anything more than what it is [...]
Long Overdue
by KillaCal on 12. Aug, 2010 in General Purposes
So tonight I had a chance to chat with my friend Joe Carlos. No he’s not just my friend, he’s my brother. I was long overdue to have an extended convo with him. The last time we really talked I was in St. Louis, just about to take my exam and he [...]
Making Moves With Puff
by KillaCal on 11. Aug, 2010 in General Purposes
So I’ve stepped up the moving process, I even put some stuff over at the new crib today….this move is gonna happen….
I’m doing a better job of not saying every little thing that comes to mind also….see how long that lasts….
Taken From A Facebook Note: The Lists – most played…recently
by KillaCal on 06. Aug, 2010 in General Purposes, heartache
be warned, some of y’all won’t “like” this list, that’s okay….I’m just recording my life and times, for better or worse….when times were good and I was posting happy music, it was all good, it should be all good now….just saying…..
1) If You Leave Me Now by Chicago (205 plays) – Yeah that number is [...]
On The Road Again….
by KillaCal on 30. Jul, 2010 in General Purposes
So barring something unforeseen I’m going to Atlanta. With everything I’m supposed to have going on this weekend I probably shouldn’t go, but I can’t bear to be here in Nashville any longer. Gotta get the hell on.
I’ll be back…hopefully refreshed with a new outlook….
Completely Alone
by KillaCal on 28. Jul, 2010 in General Purposes
I’ve got no one right now….
I’m in this by myself officially….
That’s fine…we’ll see if I come out okay…doubt it…
Don’t Play No Games
by KillaCal on 27. Jul, 2010 in General Purposes
Alot of this is bullshit. People keep telling me, “you have to act like you don’t miss her”. “wait and see, she’ll come back”.
Why?
Why do I have to pretend and play games and waste all this time? Why do I have to act like my heart doesn’t hurt every way til Monday.
People [...]
Words by George Michael…preface by Darth Vader
by KillaCal on 25. Jul, 2010 in General Purposes, heartache
“…search your feelings…you know it to be true….”
Kissing a Fool
You are far,
When I could have been your star,
You listened to people,
Who scared you to death, and from my heart,
Strange that you were strong enough,
To even make a start,
But you’ll never find
Peace of mind,
Til you listen to your heart,
People,
You can never change the way they feel,
Better [...]
Gotta Learn To Live With Regrets….
by KillaCal on 19. Jul, 2010 in General Purposes
I regret saying I wish I’d never met her…and I regret the other awful things I said that I won’t repeat….
I regret starting the whole argument that led to our demise in the first place….it may have happened at some point anyway, but still I can’t let go of the guilt that this is all [...]
