…but I can’t say it all right now.

I need to get some rest….but tomorrow I will have a bunch to say….

Well after a little drama, my cellular phone is back up and running! After this ordeal I see that it is far, far better to have that than my home phone, no home phone I can get over, but I need that cellie up at all time! As for the home phone I need to make some moderations, because that bill is just too high.

I just got done packing, so now I’m going to get dressed and head to the school to make a “special guest appearance” starring as Student Doctor Calvin, THE KILLA CAL!! In a very special episode of Young Docs, Student Doctor Calvin continues his impersonation of a medical student hoping to not get exposed by a poor grade on his final block of exams. Will he make it? It will take a season ending cliffhanger to find out the truth!

And, oh yeah….ATL here I come! I hope that my allergies don’t act up! I’m begging them not to!

Random plug before I begin here….I don’t know if anyone still actually reads my stuff, but maybe you can go read my sister Che’s journal located at www.killacal.net/babyche. She’s more interesting than me right now.

Today has NOT been a good day.

I had to deal with the guy known in some circles as the Roll Nazi, but called Secret Squirrel here. I came a bit late to class so instead of dealing with him I went straight to my assigned group, but they had run out of packets so I had to go to him to get one after sitting in class for about 30 minutes or so. So I come up to him and ask him for a packet and he starts in saying, “You are very late, and class is almost over…blah blah blah.” I was about to react very unfavorably, but luckily a professor who had been sitting in on my group interceded and said, “No that young man was actually sitting in the room I was monitoring, give him one.” I was polite about it. I went about my business. But dude is a jackass and he’s got one coming to him!

I did okay on my Pharmacology quiz at the end of the little POPS session as well as the quiz at the end of Microbiology. The second is somewhat surprising because I sat outside of the class for most of the second half of the lecture talking with my friend Brandi. I think that was probably the highlight of my day.

Nope, take that back. The highlight of my day was eating the leftover enchiladas and knowing that I’d have more for dinner. I watched a couple episodes of The Cosby Show then went to take my skill. I won’t even discuss it other than to say I have to do it again.

Oh well! In less than 24 hours I will be in Atlanta. Who cares if my eyes get red and itchy and my nose runs and my asthma flares up! I’ll be with people who love me unconditionally and I’ll be eating WELL!

If I can just make it to that point!

I ate twice as a matter of fact! Thanks to the kindness of my friends.

The first meal was thanks to the lovely, beautiful, great Romni! She sponsored me on some Wendy’s where I had 2 double stacks and a medium fry (I support the 99 cent menu strongly!). I also had the free water cup. I swear some Wendy’s has NEVER tasted better.

I went back to the school to study, renewed my lease, got two big ass packages of books and went back up to the school for a Pathology Review Session.

I came back and relax for a minute here. I played this game, and you should too, it was great!! Then the homie Drea knocks on my door after awhile. She procedes to cook the BOMB ASS enchiladas. And she made enough to last me until I leave for Atlanta Wednesday!

Who’da thought that today which could have been another rotten, no good, terrible, very bad day would be one of the greatest of the year? Thank you Romni and Drea!

This almost makes up for the Falcons wonderful choke job yesterday and my own Fantasy Football team the College Park Manglers Fumbleyah!!! losing for the 4th week in a row! I lost to the WORST team in the whole league the 23-9 Tokeland Raiders! I guess that’s what happens when you have Jamal Lewis and Tiki Barber on your team. Changes will be made!

You can blame the title on me having seen Office Space on Friday night. That is a funny, funny, funny movie. It’s a top-shelf movie for me!

Anyway, my weekend in purgatory ended on a pretty good note. I went to a baby-shower for a classmate. The usual suspects were there, notable funny things happen, but none so notable that I’d write them here. I do know that I won’t ever volunteer to video tape anything again.

Afterward I went to The Beer Sellar. I hadn’t been there in a good little minute. We knocked out 4 pitchers of Killian’s Red (thanks Drea) and I’m happy to say I don’t have anything resembling a hangover right now.

Now I should be taking a quiz in Microbiology, I’d been doing so well! I hadn’t missed a quiz yet. Oh well, today will have to be the day I miss one, I’ll be there for Pathology eventually though. We’ll probably have a quiz in there as well. If I can make it through my skill intact tomorrow I’ll be happy.

Oh I keep forgetting to mention that there is a “new” entry at Shootin The Gift, it’s actually from Friday night, but whatever, go check it out.

For those of you who keep in touch with me on AOL Instant Messenger I have a new screen name….it’s TheKillaCal.

Why would I go and change my screen name you ask? Well see Killacal13 was ALSO my AOL Screen Name and seeing as how i haven’t paid for that account in months they finally got around to cancelling it, seeing as how the phone company and them decided it was about that time too.

So anyway if you get a strange IM from me or you have one of those invisibility things active, add me. Thanks!

Once again TheKillaCal is ME.

Okay I realize that most of the news about my life that I post here isn’t the greatest. But things aren’t SO SO bad for me.

See, I have GREAT friends. Friends who give me their last little bit of spaghetti sauce and buy me lunch and dinner and stuff. Friends who endure my complaining and also deal with me putting bits of paper in their hair and generally acting like a sophomoric ass. Friends that make tacos especially for me and search frantically for a dime so that I can get an extra soft taco. Friends who will give me $10 to get a haircut. Friends who make me cookies and let me watch movies at their houses. Friends who will buy me a beer or 12. Friends who will convince me to study when I’d rather be playing on the computer/taking a nap/watching A Different World. Friends who drive me where I need to go (even Memphis and Atlanta!).

On that front I am REALLY, REALLY, REALLY lucky. I have some of the best friends on Earth. They really go out of the way to help my sometimes grouchy and unpleasant ass out. I don’t deserve it sometimes. I do and say stupid things and they overlook them.

So don’t worry about me, I’m just complaining because that’s what I do. I’m going to be okay.

Both of my phone lines are off now. Somehow my DSL line is still up and running though. Go figure! I know how it feels to be a person on a desert island. Sending out random messages in bottles hoping that someone will get one of them.

I was walking home with Drea (who endures most of my complaints about life and such) and saying that I really have no means of communication with the outside world and she said, “Well you still have internet”. And I guess she’s right, but it feels strange having this computer as my only link to the outside world. As we traveled in the elevator I asked if she was coming back to the school and she said, “I’ll call you if I do…”, then there was this silence and i looked at her and she realized that there won’t be any calling for awhile.

The worst part of all of this is that it’s only November 21st. That means I have an entire month and a half before I have ANY hope of getting out of this miserable plight.

*sigh*
Sometimes i wonder if it’s all going to be worth it, especially with the decrease in doctor’s salaries as of late.

I mean what do I say? I had a talk with someone yesterday who urged me to not “convict him in the media”. But dammit I’ve had enough from him. I mean if everyone made the same mistakes they made in 1993, Eminem would be the KKK’s poster child.

I will have MUCH more to say a little later on in a much anticipated return of Shootin The Gift….

Anyway, I want to talk about being broke. Being broke has allowed my creative juices to flow. For a long time now (since 2000 or so) I’ve been giving serious thought to writing a screenplay for a movie. Me and the homie Corey were going to run with an idea at one point, but I have a feeling that wouldn’t have pleased either of us. And then school started to run over me and so went that dream.

Well the combination of reading Max’s script and being broke has gotten me started. I wrote three pages today in class. I think I’m going to transfer them to my laptop tonght. Right now I don’t really know WHERE my story is going to go, but I’ll say a little about the general direction and influences.

I want to make something different, but familiar. We all know I love A Different World. I am also going to work alot of my real world situations into it. I like When Harry Met Sally and I know that the ladies like Love Jones. I don’t want another Brown Sugar or The Best Man (although I enjoyed both movies immensely). I love the dialogue in Quentin Tarantino’s movies and I love the direction of the Spike Lee and Wes Anderson. My story is a romance, but it will have some action. I mean my favorite romance movie is True Romance so that should be a given. I like narrators and voice overs. I want my boy Kwabena to direct it. I can accept nothing less than Terrance Blanchard scoring it. I need Morehouse to give me permission to film on their campus.

When I was writing today I swear I could see the screenshots in my head. This thing is gonna happen. I even have some of the actors in mind. I haven’t titled it or named the characters yet. When the feeling hits me I will. I mean I wrote about it here, so I HAVE to follow through with it now, right?

Usually, I’m not the guy to chime in on “the topic of the day”. I usually read what other people say and just sort of nod my head.

I couldn’t just let this Eminem thing go however. I really dig homie’s music. Like a whole lot. He’s one of the best lyricists out there.

On the other hand I HATE, LOATH, DISPISE, ABHOR everything Ray Benzino stands for. He has deeboed his way into influence and power in Hip Hop by violating every single unwritten journalistic law. He has (along with his co-hort David Mays) turned what was at one time THE BE ALL END ALL of Hip Hop journalism into a mockery and a sham. He is everything wrong with hip hop, but on this issue he’s right as rain.

I still get e-mails from a “question of the week” circle of intelligent folks I know (most of whom went to Morehouse and Spelman while I was there). What follows is my response to the body as a whole:

I always knew that this was Benzino’s “ace in the hole” in his whole beef with Eminem. It’s bigger than I thought it would be though, I had no idea that he said as much about black women as he did.

Anyway that’s just my 2 cents on it.

Yeah, I know, I know. You’re asking yourself, “Is this the same guy who went on and on about his archaic views on gender roles a few days ago?” Yes, it is! Nothing has changed as far as my feelings on that issue go, however I am ALSO of the opinion that Black women, our mothers, sisters, nieces, aunts, and cousins, deserve BETTER than they’ve been given by a great majority of artists in contemporary music. They are made a target of MORE abuse in music than any other group and it’s just sort of given a “ho hum” treatment. That’s not right.

So I mean ultimately how do I feel? Well I already don’t listen to too much Hip Hop anymore anyway, but even the stuff I’m really liking right now is guilty of this (99 Problems by Jay-Z for example). Somewhere an example has to be made, so why not now.

I am from this moment, no longer supporting artist who think it’s cool to use the word BITCH or HO as a general term for women. I can’t stand behind that.

So…..WHO’S COMING WITH ME?!