Doesn’t it just suck to be in second place and know that you have a really great product, it’s just that the first place winner was so amazing? I witnessed that first-hand this past Sunday.
First off, allow me to introduce myself. My name is Eulus, and I’ve known The Killa since around August of ‘86 by my best estimate. We go back a minute or so. I’m in my third year of grad school at UMD, which will hopefully end up with me getting my ph.d. in statistics. Please don’t ask me when I’m going to finish because even I don’t know. I might just drop out of school and be like tommy from martin. He didn’t have a job, but he somehow still managed to live a pretty cool life, playing pool at nipsey’s and boning pam (a.k.a. scary j. bilge) every now and then in addition to other lovely young ladies. There are worse things I could be doing with life.
Well, on to my story. I something very interesting at church and I just had to share it with others. Now, let me take you on a little journey, so that you will know where I’m coming from. It was a Sunday morning (april 18th at around 9:15 in the morning to be exact) and the preacher had just finished giving a sermon about people needing to be like flags and let the holy ghost blow them in the direction they need to go in much as a flag is blown by the wind. All in all, it wasn’t a bad sermon, although I must admit that my mind was starting to wander to the lovely weather that I knew was awaiting me once I stepped outside. I must admit that was part of the reason for me going to early morning service, I would have more time to enjoy the weather (the weather up here in college park has been real shitty – no not that college park, I’m talking about college park, md not lame @$$ college park, ga). *** On a side note, S.W.A.T.S. in the house *** Now, the pastor was inviting people up who wanted to give their life over to God. Three women went up there to give their lives over to God. The first woman was an African lady who professed her love for Jesus and said she was ready to be Baptist. The church clapped accordingly – all must clap for fear of eternal damnation if they don’t. So, one down, two to go before we said the closing prayer and I was off to the sunshine. Now, batter #2 is what changed the whole game and had me feeling horrible for wanting to rush outside with church.
She started off innocently enough, saying that she wanted to be baptized. Then she went into telling a story that I will remember for the rest of my life (or at least the rest of this year). She said that around this time last year – meaning around April 2003 for all you slow ones – she had tried to commit suicide unsuccessfully (I’m not trying to knock her or anything right here, I was really moved by what she said and I’m changed the better for it, but how in the h-e-double hockey sticks do you unsuccessfully commit suicide? If you weren’t successful, that means that you didn’t want to do it). So, after that, she said she suffered from depression, and it was threatening to take over her life again and she wouldn’t let it. She woke up this morning and decided to give herself to God, because only his strength and love could save her. She said she had to be strong not only for herself, but for her husband and son too. both her parents were hiv positive, and her father was still “not doing right” (her words, not mine because I don’t know her father). Also, she thanked the church because the church had been providing her family with food when they couldn’t afford it. Now, normally the preacher cuts anyone off who talk for more than a minute or so, because people are ready to go by then. But, by the time she finished her speech, there wasn’t a dry eye in the place (my eye wasn’t dry either, I think maybe I had something in it, and I was blinking too hard to try to remove it, and that’s what caused the tearing – at least that’s my story, and I’m sticking to it). She had talked for almost 10 minutes (of course, my recounting of the event doesn’t nearly match the actual event, cuz she had a lot of “thank you lord”’s and “by your grace”’s and what-have-you’s that I’m leaving out because I don’t know their exact places in my narrative. So after she finishes her speech, I’m thinking that I can’t complain about anything ever again in life, because I’ve had a truly blessed life. I felt sorry for the lady – batter #3 – going after her (cuz I’m sure no one would be listening to her story after just hearing batter #2, you have to emotionally come down after hearing a story like that).
Now, all of that brings me to the point of the story, and subsequently the point of the first paragraph. Apparently, just as I was thinking about how sorry I feel for contestant #3, she felt just as sorry for herself. First of all, she had to wipe the tears from her eyes, as she was crying too. Then, she said how she was going to come up here and tell of some trials and tribulations she’d had in her life, but she now realized she hadn’t had any trials or tribulations, especially when compared to the contestant #2. now, I believe her exact words were “man, I thought I had it bad, but she (ed. note – by she, contestant #3 meant contestant #2) took the cake”. Now, I felt REALLY bad for her because I’m sure she had legitimate issues she wanted to get off her chest, but #2 had “took the cake” and now she was left with crumbs. No matter, what she said, no one would care. They’d think she was being a baby for even complaining.
I guess she was a sufferer of what will from now on be called the Shaq O’Neal effect (as in, Kobe Bryant feels overshadowed even though he would be a #1 player anywhere else, in L.A. he is always #2 behind Shaq). Contestant #3 would be a #1 candidate for Christianity anywhere else, but contestant #2 is just too dominant in the paint, she won’t back down, and thus contestant #3’s status is lowered to a second option when contestant #2 is around.
So, in parting, I ask of y’all WWJDD?