Before I give you all of the taudry details of my birthday, I HAVE to give a shout out to the negro who is a day younger than me and will always be a day younger than me, OJ! I also have to give a shout out to the homie Drea who CAME through yesterday after enduring the trials of Job with a patient yesterday (couldn’t be me homes)….

So yeah, that’s a good place to start. Shortly after I finished my birthday entry, the homie Geoff came though and we took a shot of tequila. We may or may not have played a game of Madden. I’m not certain! As a matter of fact we won’t speak of that ever again!

Then Drea called and told me she was done working on her patient and asked if I was ready to go. Of course I wasn’t. At any rate I eventually got my shit together and we headed to Pancake Pantry.

I ate a ham and cheese omelette and subbed cheese hash browns for my pancakes, as I do each time I visit. A question you may be asking is, “why the hell go to pancake pantry if you sub out the pancakes all the time?” Because I like their omelettes and hash browns and I’m not a big pancake guy of course!

Then we went to Wal-Mart where I picked up Chappelle’s Show for myself (and almost for Drea, but someone had already gotten it for her!)….I ended up buying her Common and getting in the car and listening to it before we realized what I probably should have realized when she came to the register with it. It was from WAL-MART! They edit the HELL out of their music!! It’s quite fascist. We turned around and she tried to return it, but since it was open they were like, no ma’am. I understand that (cuz I have the copy I bought burned onto my computer!).

Anyway I got home and promptly popped season 2 in. If you can believe it, there were episodes I hadn’t seen. Such as Ashy Larry in the World Series of Dice! I was DYING!!

Earlier in the day I heard that there was a sidewalk sale going on, and in conjunction there would be a keg (almost all outdoor events here have a keg!!). So I grabbed my SUPER cup and went out and partook of beer. Thanks to Sha’Ron I got a birthday shout out on the mic which is good for my attention whoring ass! I’m a shameless self promoter.

I got asked a million times about the birthday party pictures which I PROMISE I’ll put up as soon as I get a chance.

As luck would have it, the homie J.B. aka Kane from Kung Fu walked onto campus. At some point we all decided to meander back to my crib for the food Heather was cooking in the kitchen.

Heather made King Crab, Snow Crab, Shrimp, and her famous Spinach-Artichoke Crab dip! Man it was good! We threw down ya’ll! Madison of the twins was uncomfortable so she, Eman, and Sydney had to leave and Janelle was on call, but everyone else sat around my “glorified treasure chest” in my living room and stuffed themselves. Then we had some Bellini’s (if you’re like me and didn’t know what they were, it’s basically champagne with peach nectar and whatever else Heather put in there). I had three of those joints!

After everyone left, I went outside and smoked a Cuban Cigar I had and contemplated my good fortune. Then I came back in and had another shot and talked to the homie Liz via AIM for a minute or so. Then at bout 1:15 the Killa Rested!

Thank you to everyone who helped make this one of the best birthday’s EVER! (easily the best since the BBQ!)

Thank you to ya’ll who have wished me a happy birthday so far!

It’s been good. I woke up to a phone call from my moms waking me up, then my cousin Radiance (every year…she’s like old faithful!), then the homie Eman…I finally decided to get out of bed on that one….

I went downstairs and I had a gift waiting in the office. Thanks Arie! She got me one of those “checker shot games”….LOL…the same one where i met my demise at Amanda’s house, except the shots are shaped like Beer mugs!

My little sisters called me from North Carolina where they are apartment shopping. That brought a smile to my face.

Now I’m waiting to hear back about a breakfast someone is supposed to treat me to. Right now it doesn’t look likely, so I may just make a birthday omelette.

Later on the usual suspects are coming over for some seafood and such!

I am NOT going to get drunk then, because the kids (PJ and the twins) will be there, but after the kids are sleep! WOOOO!!!

I’ll write somemore later!

Care of Ryan Cameron (with a few personalizations):

*ahem*
TODAY IS A SPECIAL DAY
IT IS A DAY
WHEN EVERYTHING WILL GO MY WAY
TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I WAS BORN
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
I GOT IT GOING ON
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
I GOT SOME SCOTCH
WITH SOME ICE IN IT
AND SOME BEER
ON THE SIDE
I GOT SOME PRESENTS
AND SOME GOOD FRIENDS
START THE PARTY
IT DON’T STOP
YOU KNOW WHY?
CUZ IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
IT’S MY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY-AH!!!

I’m going to take 2 shots of alcohol and take my ass to sleep!

More when I wake up!

Yes, I’m the most self absorbed person in the world!

I’m 26…or I will be at 1:35 Eastern Time!

Rejoice, bask in my glory!!! Buy me something fool!

Baby J inspired this by telling me people she saw when she went to her friend Nikkia’s graduation party (congrats to her by the way)

Year by Year starting with when people started falling off of my map….this isn’t to say I haven’t seen them again (although in some cases I haven’t)…just that was the last year I saw them regularly…nah mean?

1990 - James A. from NY and Kelly S…..
1991 - Jada T.
1993 - Tracie J. and a bunch of other folks from Camp Creek
1994 - That girl Candace who was a senior when I was a freshman
1995 - All the smart people from that class at Westlake like Nubia (Nile’s sister) and Roget….I mean dude was named after a thesaurus! I don’t think I’ve met anyone yet who was as smart as that guy!
1996 - Tim W., the folks from Miss Hannah’s Algebra II class the year before, Natasha R. (I still feel bad about what I did to her…even though it wasn’t THAT bad), that girl Nia who was there for like the first semester then left…from the summer all of my N.A.S. group members (especially Dorian, Renita, and Edra), my roommate Marcus and my boy Smokey, all the people who used to kick it in the dorm with me, the Tatiana Ali looking girl from Cali who I had such a big crush on….
1997 - The Class of 1997 at Westlake as a whole pretty much and the underclassmen I befriended…but particularly Christal and Elenda (they always make it on lists like this), Staci, Anyah, Nikia, Breagin (well I still talk to her, but seeing her in person would be nice), Anthony L. T., Heather V.….from the summer Cutty, Joy *smile* and her cousin Jasmine, Muffie (even though I didn’t really know her)….
1998 - The Penthouse folks I haven’t seen like Garrett (who Baby J saw this weekend), Zach, Dave H., Gary C from Miami!, the two Harolds (Houston Harold and “the Fly”), Ben aka Crustache, Paul, my roommate Graham, Black Rob, Jarrod and Agaba, Ant, Tommy, Nasty Nate, Adrian, Sammario, Naquan (who I called out of name in a drunken haze at the most recent homecoming) hell even Carl and George (what happened….whose room is this?), also my folks from Westlake that went to Clark who I lost touch with!
1999 - Dr. Parker my lab assistant and the various girls in my organic classes particularly that one girl who was in the calendars…her name is escaping me
2000-01 - I lump these two year together because it was basically the same people….who do I want to see though? Brandy and Carmen, Tiffany M. and Elan, Charlie (who I still talk to, but like I said with Breagin I’d like to see her one of these days in person)…hell it’s too many actually, but those are good enough….

Anyway….maybe some of these people will google their names in connection to mine….you never know…stranger things have happened

Oh yeah, I guess ya’ll want answers to the last entry…well here they are…

1) Portuguese Love - Teena Marie
2) Saturday Love - Alexander O’Neal and Cherelle
3) Devotion - Earth Wind and Fire
4) Thieves In The Temple - Prince
5) Break Up To Make Up - The Stylistics
6) For Once In My Life - Stevie Wonder
7) Who You Wit - Jay Z (I was listening to Part I…..but who really cares right?) Make Sure You’re Sure - Stevie Wonder
9) Can’t Let Go - Mariah Carey
10) Murder - UGK
11) Jazzybelle - Outkast
12) Got To Be There - Jackson 5
13) Just Friends (Sunny) - Musiq Soulchild
14) Feel The Fire - Stephanie Mills
15) Heaven Must Be Like This - The Ohio Players
16) Sweet Thing - Rufus feat. Chaka Khan
17) Definition - Mos Def and Talib Kweli (Blackstar)
18) Three Times a Lady - The Commodores
19) 112 - Anywhere
20) Let’s Wait Awhile - Janet

Thanks for playing!

Ya’ll know how I like those quizzes and stuff especially musical ones….

Remember this one?

Like last year, I’ll be posting a bar or two of the songs (I’ll try to be fair on the more difficult ones and give more of the song) and you tell me what song it is and the artist (doesn’t have to be THE exact artist, if another artist covered it, that’s fine).

The difficulty is variable, but the songs come from my 5 Star Playlist, so most of them won’t be SO obscure although I’ll say the first one is TOUGH. Don’t be discouraged. By the way this is going on my Livejournal as well as the regular journal….

Leave your guesses in the comments!

Have fun:

1) You made love to me like fire and rain/Ooh, you know you’ve got to be a hurricane/Killing me with kisses, oh, so subtly/You make love forever, baby/You make love forever/I ain’t gonna let you go that easy/You’ve got to say you love me too/I ain’t gonna let you go that easy/I’m gonna give it all to you
2) Never on Sunday, Monday’s too soon/Tuesday and Wednesday just won’t do
3) For you here’s a song, to make your day brighter./One that will last, you long thru troubled days./Giving your heart the light to brighten./All of the dark that falls in your way
4) Love come quick/love come in a hurry….they don’t care where they kick/just as long as they hurt u
5) Tell me what’s wrong with you now/Tell my why I/ never seem to make you happy/Though heaven knows I try
6) For once I can say/This is mine, you can’t take it./As long as I know/I have love I can make it.
7) I love b!tches, thug b!tches, shy b!tches/Rough b!tches, don’t matter you my b!tches (I know right, finally an easy one!…although I REALLY wanted to use, “You can love me or hate me/either or”) Well, the wine is sweet /And the music sways/And your lips are so divine/And you say you know/That you’re falling in love/Now, let’s be mature….
9) Just cast aside/You don’t even know I’m alive/You just walk on by/Don’t care to see me cry/And here I am/Still holding on/I can’t accept/My world is gone
10) South Texas mutherfucka that’s where I stay/Gettin’ money from yo bitches every /Got damn day
11) I gotta be feedin my daughter, teach her to be that Natural Woman/Cause she’ll be Waiting to Exhale while you other hoes be Dumb and Dumber
12) ….And welcome her into my world/And show her that she is my girl/When she says, “Hello world!”/I need her sharing the world beside me
13) Damn, I’m surprised that you called, /’Cause the way you walked away/I thought I wasn’t gon’ see you no more/Since you didn’t wanna give me your name/I thought that you were iggin me,/And wasn’t diggin’ me.
14) Something that you told me stayed in my head/All night long/You wanted me to love you/When you said softly/Reach out and touch me/My love is in your hands
15) The sweet and sour taste of love we just made/a cool place in the shade/a glass of lemonade/oh don’t be afraid….
16) You are my heat/You are my fire/You make me weak with strong desire/To love you chile my whole life long/Be it right, or be it wrong
17) Yo, from the first to the last of it, delivery is passionate/The whole and not the half of it, vocab and not the math of it/Projectile that them blasted with, accurate assassin shit (and if that’s not enough….it’s so dope I had to include…)
Brooklyn new york city where they paint murals of biggie/In cash we trust cause it’s ghetto fabulous, life look pretty/What a pity — blunts is still fifty cents, it’s intense/Tree scents is dominant can’t be covered with incense
18) Thanks for the times that you’ve given me,/The memories are all in my mind./And now that we’ve come to the end of our rainbow/There’s something I must say out loud
19) Here we are all alone/You and me, privacy/And we can do anything/Your fantasy/I wanna make your dreams come true
20) Remember that special night/When all o’ the stars were shinin’ bright/We made our first endeavor/To stay together

Yeah I know they are hard….I won’t feel bad if you cheat with google or something….answers in a future entry….

Okay, I’m a little better now after a day at the movies. I saw Star Wars Episode 3 for a second time and Crash. I enjoyed them both.

About this weekend’s outburst….well I don’t really take any of it back, because that’s how I felt at the time….but I guess I can see why people worry about me.

I was upset though. I hate feeling the way I did. I am usually not in control of things, but I REALLY hate when I can’t control things in my own place of residence, nah mean? It’s like I was just a spectator while shit seemingly was falling apart.

In actuality (and to borrow from a favorite movie of mine) “everything’s cool, the plane hasn’t crashed into the mountain”….I overreacted….I blew things out of proportion….

At any rate…not much to say today….we’ll see how the day unfolds….time for my nap!

Oh, and happy birthday to my favorite MILF, LaShon aka Kitty….I doubt she reads this, but this is her official shout out!

I’ve got Boulevard of Broken Dreams on repeat….yeah it’s that kind of day….

Am I feeling better from last night (see previous entry)? No not really? Everything just sort of “is” right now. Your guess as to what “is” is would probably be as good as mine.

It’s funny how similar my sentiment is this year to the way it was last year….I wonder how all of this is going to unfold….strange twists have occured in the plot, but I guess it’s all a part of a grander plan….

I think I’ve already made some steps that you can’t really turn back from….and well….I made my bed and I have to lay in it. I’m wreckless like that I guess.

I never thought things would turn out like this….

I’m just venting….

What makes me decide it would be a good idea to have a bunch of NIGGAS in my house drinking and throwing drinks at one another? When is that fun? While I’m playing bartender and shit….yeah that’s a good idea….I’m not getting tipped and niggas are fucking MY shit up! When has that ever been a good idea?

I need to reference this little rant the next time I agree to having niggas over here (which hopefully will be never).

Fuck man…..argh!

I need to learn to say NO, and mean it. Fuck the bullshit. This shit is NEVER fun for me, while everyone else has a fucking ball. I’m bout to say fuck all of this and just VANISH.

Ain’t shit here in Nashville for me anyway. Fuck being a disappointment, I’m tired of this shit.

Fuck it, I have more to say.

Everybody feigns this concern and what not for me. But honestly, why do you care? Really, I’m not serving a purpose at this point. Shit would be easier for a BUNCH of people if I just up and disappeared. All you people who think you would be sad or whatever would come to find out that I’m easy to forget.

Each day I get closer to just making that move. You won’t know it until that day comes, but know that the days are numbered. Let go now is my advice to you.

Oh and in case you are wondering I’m NOT drunk. Didn’t get a chance to get drunk cause I was making everyone elses drink! So this is in my sober (if not necessarily right) mind.

Oh and one more thing while I’m ranting. This goes out to the nosey muthafuckas at Meharry who don’t know me but want to know ABOUT me and my status as a student or whatever. FUCK YOU. If you want to know something come out and ask me. Don’t ask someone else who may or may not know, depending on what I’m feeding them. I’m sick of hearing from other muthafuckas that people are asking THEM shit that I’ll gladly tell you if you fucking ask. I don’t give a fuck whether you are just being nosey or you are genuinely concerned. ASK ME muthafucka, don’t ask the next man or woman. If you AREN’T one of those muthafuckas this doesn’t pertain to you, but do me a favor and let the muthafuckas who it does pertain to know that I say “FUCK YOU”.

If you have a problem with any of the above, see me. You know where I am, for now.

I have to be brief because it’s Meharry Graduation Saturday and I’m ripping and running with my friends….but congrats to all of my people who graduated today!

I love the class of 2005! Ya’ll are my folks and you know it! Plenty good doctors in the batch!

I’m out!