Man….see…when you are as lazy as me….you can’t just pop up and decide, “Hey, I’mma start doing yoga!” But last night I made just that decision.

I discovered that I am the stiffest mofo in the world….like I’m made of wood and rusty iron parts literally….

And now I feel like I got randomly pummelled by a karate man (like Carl Lewis!)

You know what though? IMMEDIATELY following the session I felt more relaxed than I have felt in about 3 years. That’s real! Like for those 30 seconds I felt like heaven and that’s why I’m going to do it again next monday. But in the interim I’m going to work on my isotonic muscle strength (holding a pose basically), because I have regressed something SERIOUS!

Anyway….I was supposed to talk about “Something The Lord Made” wasn’t I? I won’t go through writing a review (I still owe Max two of those), but I’ll say that it was thoroughly well acted. Please do yourself a favor and see it. It has examples of the kind of racism that STILL exists today, so that may bother some, but the story is really good.

Holla…

I’m typing this entry as I do my daily poker tourney….so it will be kind of disjointed….

- Last night I went to another Nashville Strip Club…it was actually decent though….Anthony’s Showplace gets a half hearted thumbs up only because it’s better than the last couple I’ve gone to….and we actually brought some beer this time….I’ve resigned to the fact that Nashville, with its backwards rules and lack of the kind of girls I tend to like, will never really compare to even the slawest ATL strip joint….

- Coming To America just went off on WGN….even edited that movie is hilarious!

- Speaking of hilarious, there is a clip on youtube that is hilarious!!! Someone dubbed over an episode of the X-Men from the Dark Phoenix saga featuring Juggernaut and Black Tom Cassidy. I’ve been laughing at it for the past 4 days!

- I’m craving some Olive Garden right now, but I’ll probably end up settling for some Wing Zone instead….times like this I miss the homie H…as a matter of fact I called her and told her so….H why hast thou forsaken me!!!

- I sat here with this window open for like 3 hours, while I watched Something the Lord Made….I’ll write about that tomorrow…..

Bout to watch the race now…

So last night I was babysitting the young P-Jizzle for the first time in a minute. Dude is really in the sponge phase. His favorite question is “what happened?” He’s very inquisitive, and luckily he’s not a big “NO!” kid yet. He really is a pretty happy kid and I’m glad for it, good job so far mommy and daddy!

So anyway I’m getting ready for the newest season of the Sopranos by watching the reruns. So yes, the young PJ and I were watching that….well actually he was playing with his train set and thankfully not repeating the dialogue (you really learn exactly HOW MUCH they curse by watching it and cringing each time the eff word is uttered in fear that the little guy will start repeating it).

Last night’s episode was the climax and “denouemant” with Tony and Ralphie from season 4 (trying to be spoiler free for the 3 people who haven’t seen it and may want to), and P.J. is all like “what happened?” during the ummm…confrontation. So I kept telling him that it was the Sopranos, to which he’d look at me with a puzzled face and say, “Da Prados??” And I’d say, yeah, the Sopranos. This went on for about 10 minutes or so. After awhile I asked him, “What’s Uncle doing?” and he was like, “The Prados!” It was pretty great man! I just hope he doesn’t try to hit someone with a frying pan or spray them with Raid, because then it’ll be my fault.

So yeah…I’ve been watching the episodes “On Demand” as well. Season 4 is better upon replay. I really was kind of “meh” on it while it was going on, but it probably had the most character developement outside of season 2. I liked seeing the dissolution of Tony and Carmella’s marriage. Well, I guess “liked” is the wrong word….I was fascinated by it though. More and more I’m seeing that marriage just isn’t the thing. I mean it still is for some people and bully for them, but it’s not the thing for the Killa at all…at all….AT ALL.

I’m too selfish in many respects where you just cannot be selfish as it pertains to marriage. Like I’ll cook and I’ll share my food, and I’ll be “giving” in other aspects….but like Tony said on a later episode, “I am what I am…”

I mean I’m not exactly ROLLING in women’s body parts, but I still value the freedom….I can do what I want without answering to a Carmella….I don’t think I ever want a Carmella….and they ALL turn into Carmella….even Carmella doesn’t think she’s the way she is….but she is….and so are they….and I don’t want that….ever….

Man….this is exactly what my mother didn’t want when she banned me from Beavis and Butthead….I’m becoming susceptable to televisions influence….guess she was onto something after all!

Yeah I just walked back in the door from a weekend excursion to Detroit. My boy Geoff had to handle some business on the homefront, so I “rolled with”.

His brother George had a birthday party last night at this real nice spot up there and we kicked back and drank and shot the shit. We had a good ass time.

Detroit is C-O-L-D though man. At one point we walked from Geoff’s spot to the homie Erica’s spot and while it was only like half a mile (give or take), the wind and cold made it seem like 5 miles!

Still, I always have fun up there in the D! D. Story, Erica, George, A.J, and all the rest always make it a fun time. If it wasn’t so GODDAMN cold up there it wouldn’t be a bad destination for the Killa. But I’ll leave that to Geoff and Dave and the rest of the folks who can deal with the cold weather.

By the way, this nigga Geoff is officially THAT NIGGA….if you see him rolling down the street you’ll know what I mean. He’s like a rap star now…LOL…I’m starting the Platinum chain and grill fund for this nigga so he can be the first Doctor/Rapper….

So yeah for the three of you who care, that’s where I’ve been.

I had some GREAT movie ideas while I was up in the D thanks to a hilarious story George told. I think that was the impetus I needed to go ahead and give this screenplay a shot (yeah I’ve been sitting on that one for awhile…I think E. Dubb and Erica up in Detroit were the only ones who knew I was seriously considering that).

Now I gotta warm my blood back up, I’ll holla!

Today is a day I’ve never really cared for. I’ve written about it a few times publically. Once in college, and a few times on this very blogger. I’ve tried the “having a valentine” thing in the past and it’s sucked. I’ve tried not having a valentine and that sucked too.

If you’ve been reading for a while (and maybe not even then) you may know that each year I tend to somehow alienate some female on/around Valentines Day for the past few years. I hope that doesn’t happen this year, because I genuinely like all of the candidates for said alienation, but I think it’s a self fulfilling prophecy and one of them will inevitably do something to piss me off and then I can blame Valentine’s Day for all of the terrible things I say to them.

The Killa actually had a decent year as it pertains to dealing with the (un)fairer sex all told. I don’t really know where I stand right now, but much of that is of my own doing as I don’t know where I stand in LIFE right now….I guess when the time is right things will unfold in a fashion that was always meant to be.

I’m learning to be more upfront. Shortly after I got back from L.A. I drunk dialed one of the past V-Day victims and poured out my heart to her. I told her how I felt about her and how it made me act the way I did, and even though she didn’t reciprocate those feelings, it did feel good to let her know. And even though we’ve only talked like twice since then, I feel more comfortable talking to her now.

I ALMOST tried to reconnect with another of “Cupid’s Girls” but I never did muster the courage. I didn’t know what I would say to her, or even if she’d care. I get the feeling that I think about her MUCH more than she thinks about me. Besides I think that relationship was always more about who I knew and how they could benefit her, more than it was about me.

I had a few talks with some male friends of mine who offered interesting perspectives to me. They both noticed that I had a bunch of female friends who were….well also good candidates for other things, but that I wasn’t “taking advantage” of my resources. Around this same time I started reading Tucker Max and I also read an article about “Alpha Males” versus “Beta Males” (take a guess as to which I fit into), and I started to see my problem (and yes it is a problem). I now know precisely why it is that I’m in the friend zone….and contrary to what I have wanted to believe my entire life it has nothing to do with looks or finance or even ambition, it’s all about confidence and understanding of some basic things.

So now the question becomes, “what are you going to do now that you recognize the problem?” The ball is in my court this year. I’ve made alot of people happy in the past, I’ve helped people deal with this and that. Well this year is about me being happy and dealing with my own issues.

Happy Valentines Day…..to ME!

Last night I had the most vivid dream ever.

I was dating Tatyana M. Ali. Like we were in a committed relationship with one another, only she was someone else, but she LOOKED like Tatyana and she talked like Tatyana. She even felt like I imagine Tatyana feels.

I think it’s safe to say that this crush I have on Miss Ali is unhealthy at best. I can’t say it’s gotten better since high school when I was looking through the National Merit Scholars directory and saw that she was one that year.

Anyway, I didn’t want to wake up this morning from that dream. It was much better than my current state of being.

I almost died the other night…I need to stop drinking….

It’s time to be random!

- How about that Super Bowl?….yeah….it was probably one of the more boring Super Bowls ever, especially considering it wasn’t really a blowout. I admit I was more interested in the game than most because the host of the party (Hi TaTa) is from Pittsburgh. I’m glad the Bus got his…it’s just too bad the Refs had to tarnish it a bit with some bad calls. That was the prevailing theme of this postseason though, so you have to admire the consistancy! And hows about Hines Ward! (A UGA Bulldog baby!!!) Now for the worst time of year. That first Sunday after the Super Bowl is always a drag!

- So I’m finally up on John Mayer (thanks Brian and BMG!) after meaning to get some of his stuff since his appearance on Chappelle. His albums are as good as I expected!

- Speaking of Chappelle, I HAVE to speak on his Oprah appearance. First of all it was great to see Dave back to hiw witty self. I feel his pain about Neal being “not a good friend” when he was going through whatever he was going through. Neal kinda hung him out to dry with his comments. And I’m glad I wasn’t the only one who thought he seemed high (or drunk) during the interview….at the beginning I was worried that he wasn’t going to make it, but by the end, he was “old Dave”. I particularly liked his story about an unnamed movie with Martin Lawrence (which fans know is surely Blue Streak) and about Black Male Comedians being forced to do drag…..that is SO true.

- The homie Liz put me onto a live Fugees reunion concert the other night (if you were active on my buddylist that night I think I put you on as well). It was a damned good concert! I found it ironic that when Pras started his (2 song) set, we lost the feed! But when it came back they did some of the best songs (Ready or Not, Killing Me Softly, Cowboys). I don’t think they’ll ever get “IT” back, but it’s nice to have them back in SOME form. They are still killing most of the junk out there right now.

- I’m still loving the iPod. I’m currently trying to get all the episodes of the Boondocks (Beautiful E if you read this hook a brother up!). A side effect of the iPod is that it has caused me to upload a bunch of albums to my computer, things I haven’t listened to in a LONG time. I’m rediscovering a bunch of great songs! I’m winning all the way around!

- I’m doing well in poker lately. I’m going deeper in tourneys and winning those sit and gos regularly. I’ve gotten 4 Royal Flushes now and a few 4 of a kind, as well as a regular straight flush. I’m about ready to take it to Vegas shawty! Someone find me a good price on tickets and I’m there!

- I’m really trying to write more regularly, but things have been slow motion around here. I’ll get back though….

I have a friend who has had an incredibly tough week.

I don’t have to get into specifics, but he’s enduring now what no brother should have to endure.

I know alot of people. I’m not always sure of what their impressions of me are, but I am fairly certain about how I feel about them. I don’t count too many people among my true friends, people who I can count on when the chips are down. RCR is one of those people.

Keep your head up man. Stay strong.