Archive for May, 2006

One Last Try…plus Birthday Wrap Up

So it appears that there may be a light at the end of the tunnel for the Killa as I sit here in the computer lab at West Basic Sciences. I’m sure there are all manner of hoops to be jumped through and various toils and hardships that I probably could have avoided if not for pride, but I made my bed and must lie in it. I’m sure this is cryptic enough, but somehow over these years I’ve managed to become more secretive and less informative on this here olde blogge.

Anyway I will give you a day by day wrap up of the 27th annual Universal Appreciation and Love-Showing of The Killa Cal Celebration.

I got to town on Wednesday via the homie Geoff and the trusty bug smashing H2. Calls were made, clothes were washed, Grandma’s Boy was watched (FUNNY FUNNY FUNNY SILLY FUNNY movie!), and eventually moves were made. We ended up going out to the Fox Sports Grill at Atlantic Station and met up with the homie Nicole and Drewski and his homie. Lots of Jack Daniels was drank (this will be a recurring theme).

Thursday Geoff needed to do some shopping so the Lenox Mall move was made. While there I ran into this guy who I super honestly (and this is a terrible thing to say….but I guess indicative of the social times) thought was either dead or in jail. I guess it makes me a bad person to have immediately thought about that when I saw him, but I….I…..I’m just being honest. Anyway after the Lenox move we went to a local wing spot, Loco’s and smashed about 7 pitchers of Sweetwater 420 Beer. After getting sufficiently hammered and smashing a few wings/queso and chips we headed over to Leopard Lounge. I really can’t say enough about that spot man. Like if I were an ATL balling type dude with money hanging out of my pockets I’d be there every single Thursday night. Fun was had! Lots of Jack Daniels was drank!

Friday…..the actual Killa Birthday….this is when things get kind of hazy. I honestly don’t remember much about what was done. Me and Lyndsey went to see X-Men 3 which I thoroughly enjoyed. We went to Moe’s Southwest Grill which I also thoroughly enjoyed. We scooped up the homie Nile and headed over to Atlantic Station for the official “watch and participate as Killa gets sloppy drunk and does foolish things in the name of alcohol festivities” which has been a staple in my birthday celebration since the age of 20. This was one of the best (as I noted in the previous entry). I gotta thank Deah and Chez for holding down a PRIME location on the third floor up at Strip, even under duress!! Details are hazy, but more than one person had a triple digit drink tab (thanks guys again), I had conversations with my cousin Rai Rai that I don’t remember at all, I ran into my cousin Kevin who couldn’t believe that I was as old as I was….I don’t know how I got home, but I know I woke up face down on the carpet. Thanks to everyone who called, texted, whatever….Lots of Jack Daniels was drank!

Saturday….after a long recovery period I ended up getting dressed and meeting up with the homie Nile. We rode the marta through the hood (just like Kast!…how many Kast references are in this entry?….not enough!!)….the first 4/5ths of the trip involved this young dude named “Pierre” who fancied himself as some sort of young Chris Rock type. He had hella jokes. He reminded me of a younger version of Nile actually which was ironic because Nile didn’t find him the least bit humorous. I had to hold back laughs at times because I didn’t want to encourage that young thundercat, but all in all dude was entertaining…or at least made the ride to that point entertaining. Then at Five Points this young hippity hoppity (see I’m old now) cat gets on the train and implores us to listen to his CD (I guess niggas don’t go around with Demo tapes to execs anymore…..they let the public decide….whatever!)….when Nile and I passed he got HOSTILE. Asking us, “Where da fuck y’all niggas from” as he slapped Nile’s knee. Needless to say, adult restraint kept that situation from escalating! Anyway we eventually made it to Hooters where we smashed more pitchers of beer. The homies Regginelli and Whitehead showed up and we had a good time. We had kinda poor service but we sat our waitress down and almost made her cry, then made up with her and ended up even enjoying her company….eventually we headed out and after an aborted trip to the Copelands Cheesecake Bistro (they were closing) we ended up at some ghetto “trap” club called Amnesia in Ben Hill by Greenbriar Mall. It turned out that Baby D and Maceo were having a “concert” if you want to call it that. Several threats were made to a rival record company who was allegedly present by Maceo, and at one point the Killa feared for his life. Still I drank some Crown (in lieu of Jack….), snuck camera phone pictures of a ghetto booty, and managed to have fun. I ended up crashing at Nile’s house.

Sunday we woke up late, but eventually made it to Six Flags. I rode the Goliath twice, the second time paralyzed in fear that it’d get stuck at the top of the lift hill like it had 4 times previous in the hour we waited. I lamented the lost days of picking up chicks there because all of the girls there were 16 and under. I rode the overrated Superman. We left and almost immediately headed to the BBQ at Breedlove’s house. It was off the chain. Lots of beer was drank. I smashed two plates of food. I had a blast!

Monday I kicked it with moms and my Aunt, Uncle, and cousin Rai. We ate and talked and had good old family fun. Then I met back up with the homie James Derrick (who might not exist) and Nile and went to the homie Kasi’s house to help him smash a keg of beer (Sweetwater again…I’m going to miss that beer….it was great!!).

Tuesday was a wash more clothes/get on the road day. When I got back I chilled with the homie E. Dubb/Jane Yamamoto/E. Union. I discovered that after 11 you can get broken down boxes from Wally World! Do the wonders ever cease with that place???

Well that’s enough for this long winded entry…..this should hold you 3 readers for a week or so!

BEST.BIRTHDAY.EVER

Woke up face down on my mom’s floor next to the couch!

Six Flags

BBQs

Bars

Good friends

Good times!!

I PROMISE to write a real entry when I get back. But for now thanks to everyone who made this the best birthday ever!!!

The truth about the truth

The truth about the truth is….

drunk or sober….

whether you like it or not….

whether it applies to you or not at all….

no matter who tells it to you….

whether you are ready for it or not….

it’s still the same….

The truth doesn’t change….

Deal with that….

Happy Feelings Everywhere

This could be the calm before the storm, or given the earlier entry, perhaps the EYE of the storm….but still….I want to write about it….

I can’t believe I’m turning Twenty Seven Years Old on Friday! This is truly amazing to me….I guess it should be routine and expected, but with the number of Black Males who don’t make it to this age I can’t help but feel….well excited!

Today was a day of happy feelings.

To spend one more unexpected day with the homie Baby J. To enjoy dinner with Joel made by his mother that had me STUCK (the good stuck, you know what I’m talking about….shrimp fettucini homie!!!….man!!)….to annoy Heather (but not too much!…LOL)

To enjoy a REALLY good Reisling….

To watch the Spurs play their last minute of basketball while other teams go on (shouts to the homie Joe from Dallas)….

To know that the cute girl with the great smile that you always notice, just….JUST….JUST……might know you are alive….

To know that your medical dream just…..JUST….JUST….may still be alive….

It’s enough to make me play Maze’s “Happy Feelings” and wanna sing loud enough to wake someone up!

Drifting Apart vs. Falling Out….

Relationships with the Killa can be timultuous to say the least.

I’m a pretty dynamic person once you decide you want to know me and my mood shifts and I’m kind of difficult depending on your tolerance level.

That said, I “go through” alot of friends. I don’t mean it in a way where I use them or anything like that, or at least I don’t intend to. It’s just that with a few exceptions there is always an ebb and flow as these things go.

I tend to sometimes just drift away from people for whatever reason. And that’s usually fine with me.

What isn’t fine with me is falling out.

See the Killa is loyal, fiercely loyal, and in that vein I also fall out HARD. I don’t trust people easily and with me it’s not as simple as “give and take, secret for secret”, you can pour out your heart to me about the trifles of your life and I don’t think I’m entitled to entrust you. If I do end up trusting you and you betray it….that’s it! It’s over, with maybe one notable exception and we’ve known each other for years.

Friendship isn’t a business deal. It’s not what have you done for me lately. It’s not friendship when it best suits your interests. Despite pinings to the contrary on here lately (and in jest mainly), I cannot be bought. I don’t NEED what you have to offer in the way of material objects or luxuries. It was never about that for me.

It’s not about you satisfying your curiousities with individuals because you see an opening, especially when you have MUCH bigger problems of your own to deal with.

Some people will go through their entire lives without ever knowing the tremendous EFFORT people put forth toward just being in their physical presence at times. They will never know that perhaps peoples perceptions of them have less to do with their internal feelings and more of THEIR OWN faults.

*takes gloves off*

I don’t have anything more to give. I’m done. I allowed you to cost me a potentially great opportunity. True the ball ended up in my court and I still appear to have missed the shot, but you caused the whole situation in the first place.

I gave you a chance to MAN UP, BE A MAN, ADMIT to your actions and you wanted to play me like boo boo the fool. You’ll never know the efforts made. I just can’t compromise my integrity that way. I have too many other things going on in life to devote energy to someone who doesn’t really give a fuck about me in the long run.

This is just the beginning for you, I gotta get off here man. I’m not down for this ride. I don’t wish ill will to you, but I don’t really think my wishes have anything to do with it at this point.

You need to detox…..

Mixed Emotions

This has been a feeling of mixed emotion. As a matter of fact every emotion I expected to feel (frustration, sadness, complete and utter joy, anger, complete abjection, etc.) I’ve felt.

I don’t know quite what to say now that the day that I feared has come and gone and I’m still here.

Today feels like, everything is the same in so many ways, but it’s so not.

On another note, one way or another something is gonna come to a head regarding the biggest situation in my life right now.

I don’t know…I wanted to write something while I had a moment by myself….but I can’t….

1 Week = 7 Days = 168 hours = 10080 Minutes

Until the Killa’s Birthday!

I’m still hocked up on the lortab! But it’s not the lortab that is saying, I TAKE CASH! Send me CASH! I will give you the necessary information if you are serious about it.

More later after I eat some ice cream….

An Ode To Lortab!!

I’m high as hell right now!
Where has Lortab been all my life!
I had to get a tooth yanked to enjoy this!

Ralphie and Vito did something on the Sopranos.
It all makes sense now.
Or maybe it doesn’t.

I look like I’ve been eating human beings.
Like Hannibal Lector!
I’m a bloody mess!

Thanks Fernando!
I’ll be back writing soon.
More Lortab induced ramblins!

Geoff gave me this idea.
Perhaps to get me off of the phone.
Thank him when you see him!

Thank you Keisha!
You and Lortab will make my night more entertaining.
Sopranos until I pass out!

I need more gauze.
I should have listened to Eman.
Eman came through like a champ though!

H will be in town tomorrow!
I wonder if I’ll miss everyone else like I miss H!
That’s my homie!

Just like Lortab!
This is better than being drunk!
No refills remaining??….damn!!!!

Enough Already With The Shark Hunting

I promised a Sopranos related entry awhile back didn’t I? Sorry, I’m currently fighting a debilitating toothache. I’m too lazy and broke to get it taken care of, so I’ll probably die from it, but you didn’t come here to read about that! Hell you don’t come here at all judging from the comments (not that I’m bitter or anything….)

Anyway, this is semi-related.

As you know if you came here on purpose (as opposed to googling your way here), I am a “loyal viewer” over at the TelevisionWithoutPity forums, specifically the Sopranos discussions. And well, before I go further I need to say something.

When I discovered Jump The Shark, I was ecstatic. I mean FINALLY a term for something I related to as an avid television viewer, that moment when a show went “from sugar to shit”. It was brilliant at the time, but like all brilliant things it has become tainted with 1) too many opinions/forms of imput and 2) overkill. The unfortunate result of this once brilliant website is the creation of “shark hunters”, people who no longer enjoy the moment with a show, but instead wait for the proverbial other shoe to drop. The ones who are constantly pointing out “shark jumping moments”, all the while missing the forest for the trees!

These people are the most annoying people on the planet earth right now (well at least besides that creditor with the 512 area code who calls me 5-6 times a day). They are firmly entrenched on the TWoP boards polluting each episode thread with talk of “you know how I know the Sopranos has jumped the shark” *mumbles’40yearoldvirgin’* type talk.

It was the same story to a lesser extent last season up until the Adrianna and Tony B. wackings. Then the same people came grovelling back with the old, “ohhhhhhh now I see what David Chase et. al. had up their sleeves!”

There are going to be episodes and arcs that some people just aren’t going to like, but it doesn’t make the show any less of a quality program and doesn’t tarnish the old Sopranos charm overall. David Chase is telling HIS story, HIS way. Hell, I didn’t care for the Artie Bucco episode all that much, but the homie Geoff was JUST the opposite he loved it. I understood that in the grand scheme of things it’ll all fit. I have faith that the end will justify the means!

I say all of that to say, stop the Shark Hunting and just enjoy the moment! Carpe diem muthasuckas!! Carpe diem!!