Ever feel like you had a whole lot to say but couldn’t find the words? Maybe it’s me being overly cautious. I rarely exhibit self control/restraint when it comes to saying how I feel, but something is telling me to wait. I hope I don’t outthink myself….I do it often.
I keep saying [...]
Overflowing Thoughts
by KillaCal on 28. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
…And I Try, and I Try, and I Try….
by KillaCal on 27. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
I’ve been told in the past that I’m never satisfied. I can’t say that I was necessarily offended or upset anytime someone has said this to/about me because in my mind I kind of equate satisfaction with complacency. My mind is sick like that.
The crazy Gemini in me craves action and attention. [...]
Each Day Gets Better
by KillaCal on 26. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
Well today is my last day of Capstone. I still have to officially sign up for something next month. Maybe I will be lucky enough to run into Dr. Jackson today. I really, really don’t want to have to do this Ethics elective. Not that I’m not ethical, because I am….exceedingly [...]
The Nine Lives of Killa Cal
by KillaCal on 23. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
So God must really like me….
I still have an outside shot….just maybe…..if everything falls into place correctly….I have to make major moves….and I need like 2 or 3 more miracles….but all is not lost….
And even if I lose this time, I have a chance for next go round….
Don’t Cry For Me The Cheat-gentina!
by KillaCal on 22. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
Maybe I’m fooling myself, but I don’t think I’m that fragile. I realize what time it is and I’m just gonna enjoy the moment. Even if the moment doesn’t last.
It’s not about one thing or the other for me, it’s about the whole.
I don’t have any expectations and I won’t be hurt, I [...]
Once Again….
by KillaCal on 21. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
John Legend’s Once Again is an outstanding album. I can’t believe I resisted it so long. Just imagine if I hadn’t rode with H all those time when she played the album I probably never would have gotten into it. Now it’s pretty much my favorite. I stopped resisting and just [...]
If I Could….
by KillaCal on 20. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
This has been a timultuous week in my life. Lots of ups and downs. I’m thankful for both honestly, because I was finally inspired to do some things I should have done long ago.
As I sit here early this morning I’m listening to Regina Belle’s “If I Could”. This song always reminds [...]
Just A Note of Thanks
by KillaCal on 19. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
I know hardly anyone reads this anymore….but I want this to be here just in case….
I just want to thank those I consider friends for all they do and go through for me….I’m demanding, I’m a narcissist, I’m…well I’m a handful…
I’ve taken action in the name of continued improvement though….so hang in there with me….the [...]
Michelle, Ma Belle
by KillaCal on 17. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
Last night I watched Across The Universe. I have to admit, on first viewing some of the parts seemed kind of random for my ADHD riddled brain, but taking the whole as a sum of it’s parts I think it was brilliant and well made.
I know a movie has me if I immediately feel [...]
Less Human Than Human
by KillaCal on 16. Feb, 2009 in General Purposes
I’m sitting here listening to White Zombie’s “More Human Than Human”. I really love this song more than I should.
I won some loot last night playing poker. That was “kinda awesome”.
I’m dancing around it…..hope things didn’t get too weird…prolly did….couldn’t help myself….believe it or not that was restraint….
But I’m patient….I don’t mind waiting…whatever [...]

