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From The Facebook Page: My Way of Paying Tribute To MJ

Okay so you knew this was coming. I want you to note that I capitalized “most played” for a reason. It is excedingly difficult to pick my FAVORITE MJ songs. So much so that I wanted to make that qualification. Is it a cop out, sure. I just know that some of you are sticklers for certain things and will think it’s sacriligious that I don’t include certain songs, thinking me some type of idiot. This is not the case, I assure you, I’m as much of an MJ fan as you’d expect from a music scholar such as myself. Also note that I excluded Jackson 5 songs from this list (ABC and Never Can Say Goodbye are the songs in question in case you are wondering). You’d also be curious to know that MJ along with Stevie Wonder, Anita Baker, and Teedra Moses has one of the highest aggregated ratings among artists on my lists (meaning I have a ton of their songs and most of the songs are rated 4 star or higher) to me this makes up for the lack of plays (because I listen to a TON of his songs).

Anyway enough with the pre(r)amble, in order from fewer to most plays:

25. PYT (Pretty Young Thing) - This might be my favorite song to hear a Black Colleg Band perform. Usually because Mahogany In Motion (or whatever the analogous group for your school is called) is showcased prominently. It’s one of MJ’s better upbeat songs as well.

24. Why You Wanna Trip On Me - Okay you are definitely going to notice a bias toward the Dangerous album on my list. Why? My dad used to play it ALOT. It’s my favorite MJ album (and yes I know I’m in the minority) because I think it was the truest album to his personality. It’s before he got completely disgruntled with society’s fixation on him (that’d be the HIStory album) and after he was no longer obligated to completely cater to the pop charts (Bad). This song in particular is a PERFECT song for that album.

23. In The Closet - I saw this video last night during the tribute and it made me realize how much I LOVED Naomi Campbell at the time. Man was she bad!! Anyway, this song was just so unique at the time with the glass crashing and the driving beat. And it was so risque for MJ at the time! He really was very daring on the Dangerous album!!

22. Liberian Girl - I’m a sucker for songs that feature women speaking foreign languages no matter what they are saying (even if it’s probably made up). For a hot second I wanted a Liberian girl because of this song…

21. Wanna Be Startin’ Somethin’ - In hindsight this song was amazing in it’s ability to remain relevant about MJ’s personal life. I really think if the media had left him alone, he would still be around. They contributed to whatever happened to him.

20. Got To Be There - I love the harpsichord on this song. I love young Michael’s voice. I love how this song makes me feel about my life right now!

19. Don’t Stop Til You Get Enough - I was telling someone this morning how this song reminds me of all of those “Make Your Own Video” videos at Six Flags! Anyone remember those? If you’ve seen this video and seen one of those videos you know exactly what I’m talking about!

18. Will You Be There - I was telling the above mentioned person about how when me and my sisters were kids we’d drive around with my dad looking for the best decorated houses around Christmas time. We had this one house we called, “The House With A Thousand Lights” and that house was the perennial winner of our best decorated homes…until one year we discovered “The House With A Million Lights” it just so happened that when the choral intro to this song was reaching it’s climax we rolled up on it (it was at the top of a hill). I’ll forever associate that song with that moment!

17. Stranger In Moscow - A really beautiful song. I was honestly surprised that so many people mentioned it in comments to my status update the other day, because I thought that with it not being a major hit that folks wouldn’t be as up on it. I was impressed by those who mentioned it!

16. Scream - You know how you anticipate a collaboration for years and when it comes out it excedes your expectations so much you remember exactly where you were when you heard it. Well we were in Mrs. Dennard’s driveway waiting on her to return home so we could visit her one day when I heard Scream for the first time. It was on V-103. I was amazed that Mike cursed! I wish MJ and Janet had done more songs together!

15. I Wanna Be Where You Are - Another young Mike song with a harpsichord featured! Young MJ and Harpsichords go together like Peas and Carrots or Forrest and Jenny! How many artists could have pulled off the kind of career that MJ did? From a MAJOR child star to adult superstar to worldwide phenom? There will never be another MJ! EVER!!!

14. Man In The Mirror - Another thing MJ could do was be socially concious without being a dick about it (*cough*Bono*cough*). You never felt like you were less of a person listening to MJ sing songs like this, instead you were inspired to do better. He never guilt tripped you! Even with Earth Song!!!

13. Break Of Dawn - MJ is so bad he can sample himself and make a beautiful song out of it. He’s so bad he can sample a song that was sample and had the same title and make it better than the sampled song (no offense to De La Soul).

12. The Way You Make Me Feel - This is my absolute favorite MJ song and yet there are 11 of his songs I’ve listened to more often! That’s amazing, but a testiment to how great and listenable his songs are! This song is EXACTLY how I feel about the girl I like. And yes, I’d follow you down the street like that!!

11. Heaven Can Wait - “Tell The Angels No…I don’t wanna leave my baby alone…I don’t want nobody else to hold you…that’s the chance I’ll wait…Baby I’ll stay…heaven can wait!” MJ sure knew how to compliment a woman! I don’t know a better way to say it….

10. You Are Not Alone - Okay so I HATED this video and the whole Lisa Marie thing….it was just wrong and I want to pretend it never happened okay. In the meanwhile this is the VERY BEST song R. Kelly ever wrote. Better than “For You” on the 12 Play album which is the best song he ever wrote for himself. This song deserves better memories than to be thought of with R. Smelly and Lisa Marie Presley though…just saying!

9. Earth Song - I have a confession. For the longest I slept on this song. I didn’t even want to listen to it. I don’t have a good reason either. I just avoided it. But when I gave it a chance I was blown away by it. MAN WHAT A SONG!

8. Human Nature - Another absolutely beautiful song by MJ. IF MJ songs were paintings, this would be his Mona Lisa…it’s so easy to listen to…if I had to define the easy listening genre to someone I’d use this song as the example. Halle Berry is to the eyes as Human Nature is to the ears!

7. The Lady In My Life - Okay my listening preferences are coming out now, because I’m a quiet storm type of guy. I love MJ’s ballads. It’s also the song sampled on my favorite “song that sampled MJ” “Hey Lover” by LL Cool J and Boyz II Men.

6. I Just Can’t Stop Loving You - I’ll just “retweet” what I wrote on Twitter about this song: “I Just Can’t Stop Loving You” is not only one of my favorite MJ songs…it’s one of the best duets I’ve ever heard!

5. Dirty Diana - Okay some people have it twisted. They think I don’t love this song. I do. I listened to it SO MUCH as a kid that I had to temper the amount I listen to it now. It’s the BEST song about scandalous women possible. NO ONE will ever create a song like Dirty Diana again…it’s a wrap. That said, if I had to pick 5 MJ songs (and I did earlier) it wouldn’t quite make the cut….that’s more a testiment to how great MJ is than an indictment of the song…trust me!

4. She’s Out Of My Life - “..and it cuts like a knife”…that’s what this song does. It’s a heartbreaking song…and well…I’ve listened to it alot…so…well….yeah let’s just move on…

3. Butterflies - The first time I heard Butterflies I stopped what I was doing and put it on repeat. It took me a day to listen to the rest of Invincible because of that song. It was just that awesome. Easily Floetry’s best contribution to society!

2. I Can’t Help It - This song is about the romantic in me. Also it was sampled very well by De La Soul (the aforementioned Breakadawn) and Mary J. Blige (Sexy). Matter of fact this is one of the many songs about her….

1. Give In To Me - This song is the best song on my favorite MJ album. Even though I no longer relate to the song on a personal level, it still remains my favorite song to listen to. Maybe it’s the guitar solo, maybe it’s the passion he sings with, maybe it’s the vulnerability of the bridge (you and your friends were laughing at me in town, but it’s okay, said it’s okay…you won’t be laughing girl when I’m not around…I’ll be okay)….this is the piece of vulnerable Cal I still hold on to.

I’m going to miss Michael….no one created music for SO MANY people…not even Stevie Wonder….MJ appealed to EVERYONE….we’ll never be able to say that again! To paraphrase the words that Seth Gecko had for his brother Richie right before he had to kill him in From Dusk Til’ Dawn, I hope MJ finds the peace in death that he couldn’t find in life!

Black Eyed Peas Living Up To Their Names….

Okay so errr….somebody has influenced my web viewing habits because I occassionally check in with errr….Perez Hilton…yeah that’s right! I look at Perez Hilton sometimes.

So all this time I’ve been wondering how this dude is able to talk the shit he does without getting his ass kicked. Did he have a big ass companion a la Wendy Williams who basically served as a de facto bodyguard? Was he a black belt of some sort? Did he have mafia contacts? I didn’t know!

Well the answer is….none of the above…and as such, he has now been the victim of an asskicking so tremendous that it has him yelling and crying on a video clip. On one hand I feel sorry for him because it’s almost like….like attacking a woman….at the same time, he’s a man and he talks SO much shit about people and usually when a man talks shit he has to physically defend the shit he talks.

So to catch you up in case you aren’t knowing….Will.I.Am and the Black Eyed Peas confronted Perez at some awards show and he called Will.I.Am a fag. This was a mistake. They “clocked” him in the eye (Perez’s words not mine!) among other things.

I mean it had to happen at some point. I don’t know what it is about these gossip hounds where they think that they are invincible or above the words that they print, but if you ask me, he got his just desserts. I mean don’t get me wrong, I get my lulz at the little doodles he draws on pics and I kind of get a cheap thrill from the celeb gossip at times, but there is a line and he frequently crosses it, and hey…when you cross lines you get dealt with.

Anyway that’s what you get Perez when you deal in drama….

One Small Step For Man, One Giant Leap For Killa Cal

The way my life has been going lately reminds me of something Johnny Sack said to Tony Soprano when they had plans to wack Carmine and it appeared they weren’t…”sometimes things take on a momentum of their own”.

If you had told me 8 months ago that I’d be where I am right now with some of the decisions I have to make I’d have called you all sorts of liars. Of course, 8 months ago Cal probably wouldn’t have said ANYTHING at all because he was mired in the worst depression of his life, so who cares what that guy thinks anyway right?

Anyway…my life has taken a certain…ummm….trajectory….I’m going into unexplored territory. I passed where I felt about another similar situation about a month ago….right now I’m trying my best not to trip over my own feet and at the same time enjoy the moment.

Speaking of enjoying the moment…I think I’m going to go swimming and play the new Guitar Hero….holla!

Your Blues Ain’t Like Mine (or I Still Don’t Give A…)

So today I did a little front desk duty. I was on a mission from Doc to take care of a specific task that was urgent for the Medical Post Bac students. It required that they come back to the school to sign some forms.

The original plan was for me to go to their classroom and have them all sign their forms and then return to the office, a 20 minute task at most, but because the biology professor cancelled their afternoon class, it necessitated getting in touch with one of the students and then having her contact the others.

Of course this led to a few grumpy phone calls, but most of them when told of the importance of it (it was their fall/spring registration) quickily changed their tone. All except one. This chick proceeded to sigh all in the phone and say how she had this that and the other to do and then asked me if it was absolutely necessary. I told her that if she wanted to be registered for classes then yes it was important. She then said something smart to me that I don’t remember and basically had a major tude.

I come to find out this same person was really rude to our receptionist Whitney who is about as nice a young lady as you’d ever meet…so I figured it wasn’t just me.

It just so happened as I was explaining to two of my bosses what happened that the girl in question happened to enter. One of my bosses pulled her to the side and had a “come to Jesus” meeting with her and she came out a bit more pleasant, but still, my bias toward her was created and it’s going to be hard to overcome. Whenever I see her, she’s going to be “the chick with the bad attitude”.

The thing about it is, she’s in a program where your attitude actually counts for something. If you gain a reputation as a difficult person it can actually stand as a hinderance to your medical education. Every year there are one or two people who for whatever reason are just unprofessional or just plain difficult to deal with and it usually takes a humbling experience to get them to realize that particular character flaw. Hopefully hers will come before it’s too late.

From what I understand she had some extenuating circumstances, and hey, I’m the first person to understand when that’s the case. I’m the fucking KING of extenuating circumstances, but when it comes to dealing with other people I usually try my best to be as nice and pleasant to people who aren’t the direct cause of said circumstances. I try not to burn bridges if I can help it.

I’m also at a point where I’ve kind of heard it all when it comes to “sob stories”. I’ve seen people who’ve lost their mothers tough it out and grind through the rigors of medical school. I’ve seen folks who’ve had their houses burn down on them through no fault of their own build back up like a Phoenix, so if you are looking for sympathy, I’m not really your guy. Hardship is no excuse for being a rude dipshit, no matter how you slice it.

So yeah…in the future, be nice to everyone…you never know when you’ll need them again!

Getting Back Into Shape

Whoa Killa, double entendres??? Really??? Yeah I’m doing that.

See I need to whip myself into shape, both physically and mentally.

I’m going to resume (for the umpteenth time) writing here on the blog. It’s good for my soul when I do that. I’m also planning to start hitting the gym (and not just because someone important to me suggested it). I plan on being around for awhile so I need to get on that.

I’m also going to start making the rounds with other bloggers, it’s been too long since I did that. No more anti-social behavior. That’s so not me!

Anyway expect to see more from me soon!

Trust Me by Guru and N’Dea Davenport

For once this is a song for me as opposed to being directed at someone else.

The Killa has well established trust issues. They reared their ugly head this weekend and almost cost me something very important to me. The thing about it is that deep down I knew what the outcome was going to be for the night and still I acted out.

Haven’t I seen that a lack of trust can do just as much to drive someone away as anything else?

Why can’t I get rid of old baggage and give her a chance to back up her words? Do I have a self imposed glass ceiling?

The Definition of Insanity….

….is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results….

so am I going to let myself go insane? We’ll see….

Property of….

Words by Brian McKnight “I Belong To You” from his near perfect Anytime album….

I want you for myself, I don’t wanna
Have to share you with nobody else
I want you baby, come to me
Let me give you all the lovin’ that you need
I wanna touch your body
Feel your arms around me
I wanna be your fantasy your dream come true
I wanna need your lovin’
Make you my only woman
I wanna love you, love you, love you, baby
I belong to you

Chorus:
Until I feel your heartbeat pounding next to mine
I’ve got work to do
‘Til every single star up in the sky
Knows that I belong to you

I want you satisfied
Anything your heart desires
Let my love provide
I want you baby, only you
And I swear I’m gonna make you want me too
I’m gonna touch your body
Wrap your arms around me
I’m gonna be your fantasy, your dream come true
I’m gonna taste your lovin’, make you my only woman
I’m gonna love you, love you, love you
Baby, I belong to you

Chorus

I’m gonna touch your body
Wrap your arms around me
I’m gonna be your fantasy, your dream come true
I’m gonna taste your lovin’, make you my only woman
I’m gonna love you, love you, love you
Baby, I belong to you

Chorus

One more time…

Chorus