So after sobering up and confronting my issues head on, I’m supposed to feel better right?
I’m not supposed to feel worse right?
But I do. My life will never be the same again.
I feel immature and childish, but more than anything like a goddamn fool. That’s the way it goes though I guess.
February 29th, 2004 at 1:29 pm
I dont know what happened…and I know that these are just words right now…but NEVER feel like a fool for letting people know how you feel. It takes a truly strong man to do so. You have the courage that most will never have. I know that there is anguish/regret for wearing your heart on your sleeve, but at least now the anguish of not knowing is over. You can begin to move on and not fret over it. Words and the whole scenario will replay over and over in your mind… but when it does, always tell yourself that you did the right thing. At least it went out there. Again, I dont know what went down, but keep ya head up!!! OK that was waaaaaay too long. Thats the most Ive ever said. Im done.
Luv ya C. Miles
February 29th, 2004 at 11:30 pm
you never feel better. you just adapt and look for change. well thats how i always do it. all you can do is grow..
March 1st, 2004 at 8:26 am
Don’t ever give someone the power to make you feel uncomfortable about being you. You are who you are and that is enough for the right person at the right time.
March 1st, 2004 at 10:19 am
Hang in there Calvin…the most important thing is that you were honest with yourself and others about what you REALLY feel…yeah, it an hurt for a while, but ultimately you made the right choice…
March 3rd, 2004 at 12:49 am
Calvin, you have no reason to feel bad or ashamed about telling someone how you feel. Although it sounds as if they led you on,which was wrong, you at least made it known how you were feeling. It sucks to like and/or care for someone who doesn’t feel the same. And what makes it worse is that they don’t even bestow the courtesy of letting you know they don’t view you in that light.
Some people are just that fucked up. I’ve been there and done all of that and I don’t regret expressing my feelings. There’s always a down side to wearing your heart on your sleeve, but I’d rather do that then stress and like/love someone who isn’t even thinking about me.
Just keep your head up and keep on truckin’ and although it seems bad now, you’ll be glad that you made that choice. =)