It started this summer. When exactly, I’m not sure. But I knew that it was more than just liking you as a friend.

Damn, as simple as that I’ve said it. I didn’t try for that to happen. As a matter of fact even as I was starting to feel that way I didn’t want it to be the case. I KNEW from then that you weren’t really “right” for me. But I couldn’t help it. You were I who I thought about.

For months upon end I’ve battled with it, and you KNEW it. You KNEW how I felt about you, so why didn’t you say something????

All this time I’ve been feeling this way, confused. Not knowing what to say or do around you. Trying to push you away because I knew that it just wasn’t meant to be, and you knew it! Why couldn’t you just confront me with it and end the charade earlier?

Instead you LED ME ON. No bullshit about it, I TRIED to show you as best I knew how without making a fool of myself TOO MUCH that I felt the way I did for you.

Shit…you could have said something TONIGHT. But you didn’t say SHIT. Instead you let me look like an ass.

So I’mma put it like this. When I see you again, don’t say shit to me. I KNOW what the deal is. As a matter of fact don’t so much as LOOK at me. I wish you happinesss and success. You “got what you want” right now anyway right?

I wasn’t being real with myself in the first place. But hey, it’s all in the open now. I made a fool of myself and I really can’t blame you, I gotta blame myself.