If you’ve seen it let me know where to find it…..

I’m struggling with this aging thing. I went to lunch for a co-worker’s birthday today. She turned 19. Yep, I’m a full 10 year, 1 month, and 1 day older than her. If that didn’t make me feel old. There was only one person there who was legal drinking age and she is 24. And there was a 13 year old. I found myself catching myself when I cursed. At first I felt “young at heart”, but I then felt just plain ole old and that feeling has been lingering ever since.

I think I’ve been trying to recapture the magic lately, but I guess I kind of came to the realization earlier that I just have to create all new magic.

I’m feeling lonely (happy, but lonely still) more often than I have in the past. I feel an almost pathological need to start dating and give myself some later life options. What is wrong with me? Could it be that we are all destined to give “it” a shot at some point or the other?

See how wishy washy and erratic I am right now? Tell consistancy to give me call!