As if this year weren’t already the worst in my life it took two steps further in cementing “year in hell” status….

The first event isn’t all that big a deal in retrospect….I will no longer be dealing with someone who I foolishly have considered a friend for years, despite his constant need to belittle me for his own selfish reasons….

I’ve given this guy hundreds of dollars when he needed it and basically been a friend through thick and thin….in the meanwhile, I have endured countless insults, disses, and embarrassing moments at his hands….it’s one thing to “crack” on your friends….while I am sensitive, I can deal with that kind of thing….but when you start to tell embarrassing stories/secrets for no other reason than to get a few laughs humiliate someone that’s a whole different story….I’ve had enough abuse….my self esteem can’t take it anymore….I don’t need friends who get off on seeing causing the suffering of their friends for a laugh….I blame myself for putting up with it for so many years….slowly but surely I’m becoming more assertive about letting people run over me….

The far more significant event happened yesterday afternoon….I was sitting at home playing Marvel vs. Capcom 2 on my PS2….I glanced out of the corner of my eye and noticed that there was some smoke coming out of the wall above our fireplace….without hesitation I called upstairs to my mother who called 911 and, we thought, put out the little spark behind the fireplace….as the firemen arrived however, I noticed that there was still significant smoking coming from the siding on the deck of our house….the firemen cracked the wall and lo and behold the whole interior between the brick outside and the wall was aflame….

Long story short, we had to wake me dad up and get him out of a smoke filled house….if we had been asleep we would have lost everything….as it stands the wall above the fireplace has been destroyed and the house has the odor of smoked wood….

Two more days in this worst year ever….at this point I just hope we make it out alive….